我還以為，只要自己再不是版管，我能多多少少得回說話上的自由，但看來我還是想得不夠成熟……為什麼別人能夠說話不負責任，我說些負責任的話語卻被阻止？我不明白，如果有誰能解釋給我聽就好了。
因為正如我那天所說，事情發生了之後，再追究責任已經是毫無意義，該做的就只有「如何在最溫和的手段去了結事件，以及避免同類事件在日後再次發生」。
容我在此重申一次我的想法。我以為，在一場紛爭當中，雙方面都有錯－－因為紛爭是雙方面的，只有單方面的滋擾，那叫「找碴」，是不會令事情惡化成紛爭狀態 的。對於如何將找碴以和平手段處理的方法，我相信大家會比我更清楚。但既然最後找碴升級成為紛爭，並需要勞動版管去介入的話，原因只有一個：被找碴的一方 用了不甚適當的手段，或者是，故意用不當的手段去「搞大件事」。無論如何，都是雙方面都做錯了事。
錯不一定是罪，但那決不是用「量」來衡量的。這不是數學的「分數約簡」，有做錯事就是有做錯事，絕不可抱持著「因為對方錯得比我多，所以我沒錯」的心態來解決紛爭，這只會最後演變成互相推卸責任的結果，如此解決紛爭根本是天方夜譚。
很不幸地，今次的事件中，兩方面都是抱著這種心態。
更糟糕的是，這次連我這位「前版管」因為友誼因素而成為雙方面同時追討的對象，希望我能利用作為版管的職權去消滅對方。這亦與我心目中版管的職責「和平及妥善處理版務紛爭」的理念背道而馳。為了我不會再被雙方利用，唯有扔下職權才是出路。
不過，這也只是其中一部分的原因而已。
另外一個原因，就是我對是次雙方的想法和做法都深感不滿。
那麼憐星，你到底想怎樣？你問。想誰謝罪辭職？還是想誰消失？統統都不是。
我想要雙方真心的反省和道歉，只此而已。
要是到頭來有人為了此事而消失，那與我作為版管失敗無異，我討厭這樣的結果。
我痛恨極權統治。因為我深明權力對於定力不足者，只會令他慢慢墜落。
所以我更痛恨別人說我極權統治，因為這表示了自己已經墜落了。
這是不是表示，暫時讓我放下權力的包袱，休息一下，會比較好一點？
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歡迎光臨 ＜星塵瑣語＞ ~ the Stardust Fragment ~
不知所謂的隨心手記，有如星海中一閃即逝的生活片段，繼續不定期地靜靜連載。
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You cannot force anyone to do what is never within their thought processes in the first place.
People today only have one thing in their mind, and that is ease. Ease of life, ease of mind, ease of everything and rejection of anything that might disturb their own ease.
So if a person is face with the alternative to admit to their own faults and disturb their own ease, or to mutually destroy each other but still maintain that ease, a surprising number of people will choose the latter.
After all there are so many people around, and internet makes in both incredible easy to meet new people and far harder to really know them, the reason to maintain a friendship have in many case been either just inertia or too lazy to meet somebody else, Some might say both are essentially the same, mind you.
But what is a moderator?
I don't know about you, but moderators are suppose to "moderate". Ya'know ,『大事化小，小事化無』and all that. Moderators are not teachers, nor are they leaders, unlike many people in many forums seems to think.
The equalivent of moderators are, well, Street Cleaners. No, I am serious, and Street Cleaners are in fact the most important factor in preserving a city. Have you any idea what will happen to a city if Street Cleaners stop clearing out the trash? A couple years ago in a hot summer week, that happened in Vancouver. All I have to say is that if it lasted another week, the city would have had a mass exodus going out. (We last a quarter of a year with no publish transport, a third of one with no nurse and half a year with no highschool teacher, and we lasted A WEEK with no Garbagemen. Now you tell me what that means.)
Cities and Forums, they are far more alike than it looks and are just as fragile. Moderators moderate for trash, take them out when they appear, and in extreme cases ensure that they never happen again. In this context, many times it is in fact a good thing to sweep under the carpet, because forum trashes are usually bio-degradable, meaning that people forget about them after awhile.
But Moderators don't throw their own trash. Think of it this way: If a garbageman decides to litter, he'd have LOTS to throw around, and they'd create a worst stink than normal ones, but most important of all is: Can the general public trust a garbageman who cannot even control his own trash? And if even the garbageman himself litters, doesn't that means the rest of us can also do that?
Well, you tell me.
Remember that question from the old Planescape PC game? "What can change the nature of a man?" In the game itself, and in the same question that people ask around out there, the answers are many, but non of them is ever "by another person". And now, I ask: "Who is entitled to change the nature of a man?" Because that is what you are trying to do.
But then again, you are also following your nature. You have always been kinda Emo to tell the truth (but take this as a friendly joke, ya'know? ;) ). Not that I am in any position to say in the first place, since I did the very same thing a long, long time ago in HOTU, among that other thing last year... (shrug)
Okay, as a person who had no idea what happened and had no desire to get involved, obviously I am saying way too much already. Just that never forget this: People always do things for a reason. It might be self serving, might be because of necessity (like mods do), and might even be simply because they have time to spare(Like I am right now). None of those reasons are better or worse than each other though, as they are all viable to the person who holds them.
People are all different from each other, but they are just people being people. (Shrug)
I am not trying to say "it just is" and I won't tell you to "deal with it". I would however suggest that finding some ways to vent would be better for your psyche. Taking a breather from duties is good, maybe meet someone new with some other interests might work. Speaking from personal experience, it does work.
Just not so much that you forget about your old hobbies and friends altogether, mind you. ;)
Shutting up right now.
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